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Today is not the end

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Jis din se hath kaata tha, uske baad shayad vo purana wala mai khi gayab sa ho gya. New Me ke pas shayad time hi nhi rha yha ake rone ka 😂. Apne laptop me screen recorder laga ke do whatsapp khol ke rakhta hu, or dekhta hu ki dono kab kab online aae or kitni deer online rhe. Vo job chorne wali hai 30 april ko. 1 se college jaegi. Mai bhi ja rha hu bangalore 11 may ko. 14 ko exam hai IISc me. fir 15 ko papa ke pas chale jaunga. Parso apni dost se baat kar rha tha, jo uske school ke group ki 4 ladkio me se ek thi. Bas usse baat karte karte pta nhi kha se iska zikr ho gya, fir usne bola ki mana le use, or maine fir ise sorry msg kar hi dia. Muje pta hai vo kisi oor ke pas nhi jana chahti, lekin mere pas bhi nhi ana chahti bcoz maine itna kuch bol dia use, khi uski bhi galti thi q ki vo baat hi nhi karti, or baki meri thi, jo kuch bhi sochta rha or use kuch bhi bol dia. Gussa to aega hi, jiske sath 7 sal se ho or use tumhara birthday hi yaad nhi. Ladkio ko dates yad rehti hai or yha muje…

Enjoying my company alone

14-15 ko Bangalore me interview hai, but abhi tak confirm nhi hai. 15-16 ko iit Bombay me hai. Pas pas date rakhi hai. But shayad dono me hi na jau, job ka try kar rha hu. Shayad lag bhi jae, bat to ki hai professor se, or vo lagwa bhi denge. Or 7-8 sal me 50-60 LPA ho hi jaegi salary, to govt me dhakke khane se acha hai, 30-35 tak job karo, fir bad me apna hi dhandha karenge ghar pe bethe bethe. Vese bhi itna kama ke udane ke din chale jaenge, to maxx 40 ki age tak hi job karunga.

AFCAT results declared

AFCAT ka result aya hai. Vo bhi clear ho gya. Lekin ab kya fayda in sab ka. Jiske lie dia tha vo hi sath nhi. Kuch din me vo job chor degi, dekhte hai shayad uske baad kuch badle. Pta nhi par lagta hai ki vo mere khilaf koi plan bna rhi hai. Vese bhi mai nhi darta kisi se. Use bola ki agar koi problem hai to bol deti, mai samajhne ki kosish karta, lekin tune to baat karna hi band kar dia. Ab nhi karunga use msg. Uski kismat kharab hai jo usne mere se jhagda kia. Vese bhi mai bhi dekhu ki kon hai jo door rehke bhi pyar nibha sake, pas rehke to koi bhi kar sakta hai.

Feeling great

Muje laga tha use bhulna mushkil hoga, lekin jis din hath kaata, uske baad sab asan ho gya. IIT Bombay ya IISC Bangalore me se koi ek join karunga, but usse pehle trident me try karta hu job ka. Shayad lag hi jaegi trident me. Or trident aram me 6 lakh de degi, 1 sal bad to 12-15LPA ho jaenge. Jo bhi hai, ab fark nhi padta vo kya kar rhi hai, bcoz use fark nhi pada jab maine apna hath kata tha.

Sinking boat, empty life, not afraid to die


Shayad aj kuch nhi mere pas bolne ko. I am just stuck, she gave me an aim to follow, but now she is gone, the aim is dissolved. I am just wasting my time, not doing anything productive.

I don't know What I am doing

Muje nhi pta ki mai kya kar rha hu. Jab tak vo sath thi tab tak life me kuch aim tha, ab bina aim ke bas TV series dekhta rehta hu. Bhoot saare courses bhi drop kar die to subh time pe uthta bhi nhi, breakfast bhi miss kar deta hu or class bhi. Sab shi chal rha tha, muje laga ki ye semester bas nikal hi gya, lekin last me bakchodi ho hi gai. Jiska dar na tha vo ho hi gya. Or vo madam ji ye dikhnae ki kosish karti rhi ki vo kitni mahan hai apne gharwalo ke samne londe ko shadi ke lie mana karke. 2 rishte aae the, pehle ladke ne ise reject kar dia, dusre ko isne, or mai ye sochta rha ki mere lie kia tha. Matlabi sali. BC sare matlabi hai is duniya me. If anyone in this world who gonna support you is your parents, baki sare ya to tumhara fayda uthaenge ya maze lenge. Don't trust anyone if you are not in relation with them. muje laga ki 7 sal ho gae, ab ghanta chor paegi muje. Agar tum logo ko purane msg padhae to sochoge ki ya to vo msg maine khudko kie hai, ya kisi bhoot ne. Agar u…

Now I am done with this relationship. Her promises are fake, she is too.

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usne call kia or boli ki maine usse fir baat ki. Maine kha ki muje sorry bolna tha, bas islie kia. tuje kya problem hai maine baat ki to, he is my friend, tuje kya karna. use to pta bhi nhi ki maine apna hath bhi kata tha. us londe ne na use kuch saf saf btaya, na muje. sala hum dono ke bech me jhagda karwa rha tha, bhosdika. vese bhi jhagda ho hi chuka hai, use apne office ke jhoote logo se pyar hai to thek hai, reh apni jhooti duniya me. use maine kha ki tuje janna hai na ki maine use us rat q jaga ke rakha tha to jake facebook khol or msg padh le. usne dekha hoga khoon, block nhi kia muje, shayad kal call kare, ya us londe se puche ki kya kya hua tha. jo bhi hai, muje pta hai use meri fikar nhi. ek to uske lie sab kuch kia, uper se mai hi dhoshi. I am happy ki maine sab khatam kar dia, vo kya khatam karegi. log islie relationship me rote hai bcoz boy always leaves, mai to islie ro rha tha bcoz mai uska saath de rha tha, aaj, kal, or hamesha. agar tum relationship me ho, then marry…